your the girl i been looking forr :D

Well the title says it all :P

NO i am not desparate :P

i am not like one of my friends

lee dong :hey A(cant expose name feel sorry for her :))

A : hey....

lee dong: Do you tink i am hot?

A: WHAT! EWW!

lee dong: do you want to be my girlfriend :D(with gay face)

A: *no comment*

yuph thats true shit.... :D there is this play we are doing called "joan of arc"

and i was suppose to be like the wingman of joan but just because there is a huggy2 scene

he has to take my role... but you know :D i got my huggy that what you gonna get in the play XD

plus the advantage i can concentrate on my studies and i got a very small role so its gud enough for me :D

ok enough about him lol....

Some of my friends been asking me if the girl you like is truly the one that you think she is?

well lets see with the check list

the Dream girl :D

~Long hair girl

~Black hair

~Understandable

~Commitment

~ funny

~ hyper

~Shorter then me(:P)

i dont ask much just this list for my christmas gift hahahahahah :D

RANDOM FACT!!!: i am currently download hitman the movie hahahahahaahaha

*I LOVE hayley williams more then megan fox but if i can choose to date them i cant choose neither of them...@_@ too smexy! i wonder if i can get half for each..hmm... Hayley fox LOL or Megan williams (i tink megan williams sounds fine to me buy 1 get 2 :D ahhahhaha)

I am not going to hide, i am not going to buy

My blog been turning my own reflection lately =] but who cares its my blog i get to do what i want :D

there is two topic to talk today. Boo-yah!

For Ages i been hiding, creeping slowly out and back in again.... Why?

Since i was a kid my mom apparently shut all of my reason of fighting back "My freedom"(thats what i said in my childhood Haha), So everytime i give a reason she would beat the shit out of me haha! and so she makes me so vulnerable to any comments and look down and puss out and wont talk back... yeah everybody has their childhood memories and those are mine Since then i was never able to say anything but just say yes,i might fight back with little power but not full. Now i work real hard to overcome this nightmare and i am working hard to do it. i am also trying to overcome my shyness to people.

Side Topic:

Guys saying stuff to me won't make me sit on the chair and worry, not this time. you may call me anything you want "lame,gay,stupid,faggot" but i know who i am, and i love the way i am i am strong and i am believe i can make it through out the day without feeling like crap just because you call me something i am not, You may hurt me all you want with words,hand movements and everything else but those words will be thrown from my mind as you say it, so Guys dont waste your energy on things you can't stop. Just like Katt williams says "There are people who are going to hate you regardless, Dude, get it out of your head that fantasy world where no one is going to hate you, you need haters What the hell you talking about?!, what the hell do you think a haters job is? to freaking hate, so let those dumbass do their motherf*cking job!" Such words... of wisdom hahahah

overcoming this is not a simple job, but yet i am trying my best to keep up with it :D

so here is the deal everytime i post something i will promise i will speak out loud on what i do,what i like and what i dislike? deal? heres the first one

*I listen to Jonas brothers,You guys might say yuck but can you guys make music like them? =)*

See you guys,gays,lesbian,haters

Eric

Escape

Verse

I tend to say

what i want

i mend to say

i want you

but what i want

to do

is to runaway

find a place

that we can escape

to a place where

no one has staye

no one have ever been

together we will feel

great

Chorus

We'll leave the pass

and enter the future

for you and i

are meant of each other

i feel terribly wrong

if i didnt make it through

but we all know i love you

Verse

i am going to run

to catch your hands

i am going to talk to your dad

just to let us have fun

to go find the lost

paradise fall

where we would

fly with balloons

and feel so lost

with the dreams

we cross

to the place where

we would have made

no one has ever been

together we will feel great

Bad Week,Feeling Real lost

Hey guys sorry about not posting for a long time

i just feel really awful Though nobody actually read this crap :D

anyway this past few days been terrible and not the one i want to remember

not that i hate my life, its just that some people Change and all i want is them back thats all

Here it is Cast list of the person involve in my F*ck up week

The Guy i look up to- Mr.X

the guy friends i pretty much support- SBG

My Sis-Miss Y

My awesome friend -Miss V

So here is it

Have u ever had a person who you LOOK UP TO?At School? if yea than thats me

and that guy is Mr.X the super duper awesome Songwriter.... A school's importante person you can say, He was pretty much popular(Updated:HE IS POPULAR) and yet he is the kindness guy i ever talk to, Great singer not to mention. he is the guy who first inspired me to play guitar not anyone from International bands...NO its him He inspired me to play guitar. A years gone by and things got a bit rough on the edges and he was their for me when i broke up with my girlfriend last year, he made me super happy by telling me to listen to "King of wishful Thinking" (Ps.Awesome band!) he made me happy in no less then 3 days by listening to that song thanks Mr.X for that

And last year Mr.X created his stage name and sooner before the year 2008 finish he made it a full time band with Mr.X and SBG together.

i remember when he grew big i mean literally BIG at school, grew more popular, more friends, and lots more while then i was the only one to notice i am starting to lose Mr.X(sorry dude the truth) thats what i felt, i am not quite sure But everytime i meet him nowadays he just says "Hi" i was kinda bummed out you know, and he was the guy who introduces me to GK yeah.... i am not Much of a gk collector to be truthful its quite pricy and anyway.... here come the bad part he has almost every single tshirt there, and i pretty much got the same tshirt as him and remember what i told you about he becoming famous? So famous that he even reach till my grade and when i wear the exact GK(Though he didn't wear it to school) People are like Calling me Poser,Here is the good part, Mr.X was yet there again to help me thru it

i remember what he says "If you dress like someone abit doesn't mean your a poser but that person is a role model to you" and YES he became my role model/Big brother/friend/and a person who look up to

You might have fans but you must remember i look up to you

and so goes the story to tell, My life was being threaten with words like "Hey you look like Mr.X,POSER!,CopyCat!,Have your own style!"Etc etc

and this present year (2009) things was going fine.... i was trying to mix styles so i would not look like a Mr.X Clone and this holiday season i found some american apparel so yea i bought it Its Red( yup see i just basically give u guys a foreshadow :P)i didnt know Mr.X has a red one too but till now no one notice it yet its the same,I didnt know he has it too...which pretty much sucks

and now yeas gone by his band is up to fame and i am just left out i guess

and a week ago i said "Hi Mr.X!" he replied "Hi" look away.... i mean what happen to him? it is true that some of my friends meet him and now they are close while i am not... i miss those days where we would just jam normally together and i remember when we last jam together, it was near the assembly place thats the last time i ever remember. its just like i want to beat the shit outta myself for not having the guts to say anything and yea thats true i am a pussy i dnt really say shits out

i mean everytime i look at him with my friend its just ARGH!.... you know not angry at them but i am angry at the fact that i cant deal with situations like this......they are seen together with Miss V and Y

Sidestory:

Miss Y is(or was) my sister dearest, the last time i could remember we was pretty much tight with her now it just like i am not the one there.... i remember when i bought her a cake she pretty much doesnt have much of a great reaction and ... no one told her that i was the one who bought the cake and doesnt even bother too oh well... we use to hug everytime we meet now the last time i remember the last hug was her birthday thats it and yet again all we do now is "hi" ... what happen? i miss you =[

Back to the story i mean even now Mr.X and SBG dnt talk to me.... i feel like it.... i just dont like the fact that my role model and the person who inspired drifts away so far i cant even have a decent talk with him.. i just want to say to him(i bet he wont read it) I miss you koko... miss the fact that we use to hang out... the fact we use to get drunk and sing avenge... i miss eating mcdonald in class with you i miss the day we go to the japanese restaurant near the school oh well.... as times flies... so does my friends... =[

I changed? or Did he?

new song :D

Verse
I tried to write a song about you
and it so damn hard i almost give up too
I guess its not that easy
i guess its hard to write what you love

I guess i have to try and step it up
and i guess every time i have to make it rhyme
i know i know
i want to make it sound so good
i know i know
i want to add some piano beats
i know i know
i should add some more drum beats

so here we go

Chorus
Hello,Hello Can anybody hear me
i am in love in less then one,two,three
i know it sound so cliche
i will count four,five,six
seven,eight,nine
you will already be mine

Verse
I never knew Chorus could be so fun
it feels like she just hit me to one
i always thought we got to add some friends
who will help me sing and

All: I guess you need us all cause we sound great
especially when it in the chorus and bridge
i know i know
i want to make it sound so good
i know i know
i want to add some more tune
i know i know
i should add some more peoples too

So here we go

Chorus
Hello,Hello Can anybody hear me
i am in love in less then ONE!TWO!THREE!
i know it sound so cliche
i will count FOUR!FIVE!SIX!
SEVEN!EIGHT!NINE!
you will already be mine

bridge
So we now we do less guitar more clapping
let me continue the numbers while you keep on claping
ten,eleven,twelve
i dont want anyone else
thirteen,fourteen,fifteen
i dont want to end us at our teens
sixteen,seventeen,eighteen
i wanna it to be you and me
nineteen,twenty a.....

Chorus
Hello,Hello Can anybody hear me
i am in love in less then ONE!TWO!THREE!
i know it sound so cliche
i will count FOUR!FIVE!SIX!
SEVEN!EIGHT!NINE!
you will already be mine


Its gonna be played with a drummer duh!
no auto tune :D just my voice i swear!
hoping to get my album cover done soon

Might not be or to be

new song :D

this is song is more personal
its about me telling my ex
i remember telling her i am not perfect nobody is
so i created the song "Superman"

Superman
Verse
Every time I wake up
I seem to lost recall
Every time I wake up
I have that feeling of pain
That runs thru my body and vain
I guess it was that girl last night
That broke my heart into pieces
Chorus
I’m not superman
Problems tends to kick in too
It might be hard
But I can pass the problem with you
I’m not superman
I have my flaws
Its might not be huge
But hell its hard to be lost

Verse
It was blur last night
All I remember was our fight
I want to return back
To where we would smile
I throw my body
In the mist of the problems
That’s for sure

I'm Back

Sorry if i haven't update my Blog for awhile....

As usual i am busy with music works and studys :D ahahaha

its grade 10 for me.... and plus news songs are created XD

Sooooooooo here is one of my plans

I make my ep work it out......

and thennn.... secretly... i am working on my Christmas ep XD hahahahaha

its called... "Mistle toe is so in!"

now to work the name of my ep....hahahhaa