A final word of thanks

We might not be the same people as we use to be, where we would joke around things
where i would have listen to your webcam chat about your room till you go off


were fate leads us we don't know, thats why everything is a surprise
where i am heading to in the future i barely know
when will the answer be? it was today sorta like 10 min ago...
it was a soft "no" because i understand


I took alot of time, never saw the clock, never saw your feelings changes,never bother to see what lies ahead of me


2 days ago in the facebook inbox i type "i love you" and if i could go back 2 days ago i would still write the same no matter what the answer will be. if i would regret meeting you i would say "No" because you make my heart smile and still it does
and if i have any comment on what happen... i can only say this 


"feelings comes and go, i never thought i would at last express how i feel after a long time. my legs are still shaking. and i am repeating "breathe" by taylor swift again and again... and actually i am the one who shuld say sorry.... I'm sorry it took damn long... i'm sorry i can't say it out loud to you as soon as possible i'm sorry that if i ever kept you waiting... i'm sorry you ever love me...*wiping the tears from me keyboard* aww f*ck.... what is this feeling? the lost of despair? or the feeling of being late.... I knew the sanctity of deadline was posted in my classroom was for no reason.... anyway to the girl i cherish alot I am sorry"


I have this problem called "adhd" which main point is not able to pay attention... not able to concentrate... not able to stop moving... and not able to be confident about things... when i said "i love you" i fought my adhd and i was shaken up and felt insecure but i did it all for you because sooner or later i knew you are going to see it.. 


so this is goodbye i guess? 
even though we say lets still be frens
frankly, I don't think we are going still going to be the same
again... heck I never overcome shyness in my adhd
but you must know i still love you...


cared,love,broken
Eric