Sunday, September 6, 2009
A final word of thanks
We might not be the same people as we use to be, where we would joke around things
where i would have listen to your webcam chat about your room till you go off
were fate leads us we don't know, thats why everything is a surprise
where i am heading to in the future i barely know
when will the answer be? it was today sorta like 10 min ago...
it was a soft "no" because i understand
I took alot of time, never saw the clock, never saw your feelings changes,never bother to see what lies ahead of me
2 days ago in the facebook inbox i type "i love you" and if i could go back 2 days ago i would still write the same no matter what the answer will be. if i would regret meeting you i would say "No" because you make my heart smile and still it does
and if i have any comment on what happen... i can only say this
"feelings comes and go, i never thought i would at last express how i feel after a long time. my legs are still shaking. and i am repeating "breathe" by taylor swift again and again... and actually i am the one who shuld say sorry.... I'm sorry it took damn long... i'm sorry i can't say it out loud to you as soon as possible i'm sorry that if i ever kept you waiting... i'm sorry you ever love me...*wiping the tears from me keyboard* aww f*ck.... what is this feeling? the lost of despair? or the feeling of being late.... I knew the sanctity of deadline was posted in my classroom was for no reason.... anyway to the girl i cherish alot I am sorry"
I have this problem called "adhd" which main point is not able to pay attention... not able to concentrate... not able to stop moving... and not able to be confident about things... when i said "i love you" i fought my adhd and i was shaken up and felt insecure but i did it all for you because sooner or later i knew you are going to see it..
so this is goodbye i guess?
even though we say lets still be frens
frankly, I don't think we are going still going to be the same
again... heck I never overcome shyness in my adhd
but you must know i still love you...
cared,love,broken
Eric
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Going back to My old oldies :D
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Unknown blog for Dearest
Sickening
Thursday, August 20, 2009
How does this Sound for my everyday supply :D
Breakfast:
- Half grapefruit or 8 oz. Glass of unsweetened grapefruit juice
- 2 eggs: any style (fry your eggs in butter)
- 2 slices of bacon
Lunch:
- Half grapefruit or 8 oz. Glass of unsweetened grapefruit juice
- Meat, any style, or fish
- Salad with sugarless dressing
Dinner:
- Half grapefruit or 8 oz. Glass of unsweetened grapefruit juice
- Meat, any style, or fish (gravy must not be made with flour)
- Salad (as much as you can eat) with sugarless dressing
- Red, green or yellow vegetables, as much as you want (but no potatoes or corn!)
Bedtime Snack:
- Tomato juice or skimmed milk
WHY IS MY TEACHER BEING A DOUCHE?
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Reply to Eli's Blog
I dont know about my day....
Monday, August 17, 2009
A Story i want to share :)
Was it the right thing?
it t all started when I was 6 years old. While I was playing outside on my farm in California, I met a boy. He was an average kind of boy who teased you and then you chased them and beat them up. After that first meeting in which I beat him up we kept on meeting and beating each other up at the fence. That only lasted for a little while though. We would meet at the fence all the time and we were always together.
I would tell him all my secrets. He was very quiet he would just listen to what I had to say. I found him easy to talk to and I could talk to him about everything. In school we had separate friends but when we got home we would always talk about what happened in school. One day I said to him that a guy I liked hurt me and broke my heart. He just comforted me and said everything would be okay. He gave me words of encouragement and helped me get over him. I was happy and thought of him as a real friend. But I knew that there was something else about him that I liked. I thought of it that night and figured it was just a friend kinda thing that I was feeling.
All through high school and even through graduation we're always together and of course I thought of it as being friends. But I knew deep inside that I really felt differently. On graduation night even though we had different dates to the prom I wanted to be with him. That night after everybody went home I went to his house and wanted to tell him that I wanted to see him. Well, that night was my big chance and all I did was just sit there with him watching the stars and talking about what I was going to do and what he was going to do. I looked into his eyes and listened to him talk about what his dream was. How he wanted to get married and settle down. He said how he wanted to be rich and successful. All I could do was to tell him my dream and cuddle next to him.
I went home hurting because I didn't tell him how I was feeling. I wanted to tell him so bad that I loved him but I was too scared and frightened. I let my feelings go and told myself that someday I would tell him just how I felt. All through college I wanted to tell him but he always had someone with him. After graduation he got a job in New York, I was happy for him but at the same time I was sad to see him go. I was sad also because I didn't tell him how I felt. But I couldn't let him know now that he was leaving for his big job. So I just kept it to myself and watched him go on the plane. I cried as I hugged him for what I felt was going to be the last time. I went home that night and cried my eyes out. I felt hurt that I didn't tell him what I had inside my heart.
Well, I got a job as a secretary and then worked my way to a computer analyst. I was proud of what I had accomplished. One day I got a letter with an invitation to a marriage. It was from him, I was happy and sad at the same time. Now I know that I could never be with him and that we could only be friends. I went to the wedding the next month. It was a big occasion. The big church wedding and the reception at the hotel. I met the bride and of course him. I fell in love one more time. But I held back so it wouldn't spoil what should be the happiest day in his life. I tried to have fun that night but it was killing me inside watching him being so happy and me trying to be happy covering up my sadness tears inside of me.
I left New York feeling that I did the right thing. Before I left on the flight, he came running out of nowhere and said his good-byes and how he was very happy to see me. I came home and just tried to forget about what went on in New York. I had to go on with my life. As the years went on, we wrote to each other on what was going on and how he had missed talking to me. On one occasion he never wrote back to me at all. I was getting worried as to why he hadn't written anything for a long time after I had already written 6 letters to him. Well, just when everything seemed hopeless and sad in my life, I got a note that said: "meet me at the fence where we used to talk about things". I went and saw him there. I was happy to see him, but he was broken-hearted and sad inside. We hugged until we couldn't breathe anymore.
Then he told me about the divorce and why he hadn't written for a long time. He cried until he couldn't cry anymore. Finally, we went back to the house and talked and laughed about what I had been going and to catch up on old times. But in all of this, I couldn't tell him how I felt about him. In the days that followed, he had fun and forgot about all his problem and his divorce. I fell in love again with him. When it came time for him to leave back to New York, I went to see him off and cried. I hated to see him leave. He promised to see me every time he could get a vacation. I couldn't wait for him to come so I could be with him. We would always have fun when we were together.
One day he didn't show up like he said he would. I figured that he might have been busy. The days turned into months and I just forgot about it. Then I got a call one day from a lawyer in New York. The lawyer said that he had died in a car accident going to the airport. And that it took this long till everything was settled. It broke my heart. I was shocked about what took place. Now I knew why he didn't come that day. Again, I was broken-hearted. I cried that night, cried tears of sadness and heartache. Asking questions why did this happen to a kind guy like him?
I gathered my things and went to New York for the reading of his will. Of course, things were given to his family and his ex-wife. I finally got to meet her since the last time we met at the wedding. She explained to me how he was and how he always provided. But he was always unhappy. She would always try everything but she couldn't get him happy, as he was that night at their wedding. When the will was read, the one thing that was given to me was a diary. It was a diary that of his life. I cried as it was given to me. I didn't know what to think. Why was this given to me? I took it and flew back to California. As I flew on the plane I remembered the good times that we had together. I started reading the diary and what was written.
The diary was started with the day we first met. I read on till I started to cry. The diary told of him saying that he had fallen in love with me that day I was broken-hearted. But he was too afraid to tell me what he had felt. That is why he was so quiet and liked to listen to me. It told of how he wanted to tell me so many times, but was too afraid to say anything. It told of when he went to New York and fell in love with another.
How the happiest time he had was seeing me and dancing with me at the wedding. He said he imagined it was our wedding. How he was always unhappy till he had no choice but to divorce his wife. How the best time in his life was to read the letters written to him by me. Finally, the diary ended when it said, "today I will tell her I love her". It was the day he was killed. The day I was going to finally find out what was really in his heart.
If you love someone, don't wait till tomorrow to tell him/her. Maybe that next day will never come at all.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
That was embarassing...
Saturday, August 15, 2009
TOUCHE DOUCHE!
New fresh song :D
Friday, August 14, 2009
your the girl i been looking forr :D
Thursday, August 13, 2009
I am not going to hide, i am not going to buy
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Escape
Verse
I tend to say
what i want
i mend to say
i want you
but what i want
to do
is to runaway
find a place
that we can escape
to a place where
no one has staye
no one have ever been
together we will feel
great
Chorus
We'll leave the pass
and enter the future
for you and i
are meant of each other
i feel terribly wrong
if i didnt make it through
but we all know i love you
Verse
i am going to run
to catch your hands
i am going to talk to your dad
just to let us have fun
to go find the lost
paradise fall
where we would
fly with balloons
and feel so lost
with the dreams
we cross
to the place where
we would have made
no one has ever been
together we will feel great
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Bad Week,Feeling Real lost
Sunday, July 26, 2009
new song :D
I tried to write a song about you
and it so damn hard i almost give up too
I guess its not that easy
i guess its hard to write what you love
I guess i have to try and step it up
and i guess every time i have to make it rhyme
i know i know
i want to make it sound so good
i know i know
i want to add some piano beats
i know i know
i should add some more drum beats
so here we go
Chorus
Hello,Hello Can anybody hear me
i am in love in less then one,two,three
i know it sound so cliche
i will count four,five,six
seven,eight,nine
you will already be mine
Verse
I never knew Chorus could be so fun
it feels like she just hit me to one
i always thought we got to add some friends
who will help me sing and
All: I guess you need us all cause we sound great
especially when it in the chorus and bridge
i know i know
i want to make it sound so good
i know i know
i want to add some more tune
i know i know
i should add some more peoples too
So here we go
Chorus
Hello,Hello Can anybody hear me
i am in love in less then ONE!TWO!THREE!
i know it sound so cliche
i will count FOUR!FIVE!SIX!
SEVEN!EIGHT!NINE!
you will already be mine
bridge
So we now we do less guitar more clapping
let me continue the numbers while you keep on claping
ten,eleven,twelve
i dont want anyone else
thirteen,fourteen,fifteen
i dont want to end us at our teens
sixteen,seventeen,eighteen
i wanna it to be you and me
nineteen,twenty a.....
Chorus
Hello,Hello Can anybody hear me
i am in love in less then ONE!TWO!THREE!
i know it sound so cliche
i will count FOUR!FIVE!SIX!
SEVEN!EIGHT!NINE!
you will already be mine
Its gonna be played with a drummer duh!
no auto tune :D just my voice i swear!
hoping to get my album cover done soon
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Might not be or to be
this is song is more personal
its about me telling my ex
i remember telling her i am not perfect nobody is
so i created the song "Superman"
Superman
Verse
Every time I wake up
I seem to lost recall
Every time I wake up
I have that feeling of pain
That runs thru my body and vain
I guess it was that girl last night
That broke my heart into pieces
Chorus
I’m not superman
Problems tends to kick in too
It might be hard
But I can pass the problem with you
I’m not superman
I have my flaws
Its might not be huge
But hell its hard to be lost
Verse
It was blur last night
All I remember was our fight
I want to return back
To where we would smile
I throw my body
In the mist of the problems
That’s for sure
Friday, July 17, 2009
I'm Back
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Sorry!
Monday, May 18, 2009
The End of ThePartyScene Anesthetic's School Year :D
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
YAY RANDOM!
Hearing your voice recorded will sound very weird at first, not matter how good or bad the actual quality of the recording is, but it's something you have to get used to.-SPL
Why your voice sounds different on a recording - Timothy E. Hullar in Scientific American describes the reason. The sound of your voice reaches the inner ear by two paths:
Sound conducted by air enters the auditory canal of the ear and impacts the eardrum, which transmits the sound down the middle ear and finally into the fluid filled spiral of the inner ear called the cochlea.
Sound conducted by bone travels through the medium of bone and body tissue directly to the cochlea in the inner ear.
But there's a catch...
Bone conducted sound is generally perceived to have a lower, deeper tone than sound conducted down the auditory canal.
So when you speak, what you hear as your voice is a blending of signals: one signal comes from your auditory canal, and the other signal comes from bone conduction. Since the sound of your voice originates from your head, the dominant signal is from bone conduction, which gives the sound of your own voice a deeper tone or bias. However, when you hear your own voice via a recording, the bone conduction signal is no longer dominant, and your voice will sound higher pitched than you are used to.
The bias is easy to experience. Just plug your ears and listen to yourself talk. Compare that voice to the the voice you hear with your ears unplugged. That same phenomenon is occurring when you compare the familiar sound of your own voice with the sound of your voice in a recording.-RICHARD
ask anyone, when you hear your own voice on a record, it always sounds weird. the voice you hear from yourself sounds different from what others hear because of the fact that you hear it mostly inside of your skull (what noone else does). so you hear your own voice with the full resonance of your head/skull. without that and from "outside" it mostly sounds ok, but you're not used to that. you know, naturally people wouldn't hear their own voices, that's just by technology... but well, believe your friends when they say it sounds fine, they are the ones who hear your voice as it is..-REX
you never sound the same on the recorder, but if your friends say you sound ok then you probly do, you also might just be like me a little they say your good but you still dont like your own voice. the way i figure it some people will like your voice and then some might not you simply cant please every one. If that still dosent work for you there are two other ways you can test to see for your self. one make a youtube vid of you playin with face coverd if your shy. Then read the coments, people tend to be very honest be prepared to hear the good and bad. The second way i suggest is to get a jam session together or you can go solo and play in or around a crowd and watch the peoples faces again prepar for the good and bad comments or looks.
Right Round Acoustic Mix
Monday, May 11, 2009
Peewee
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Here the link to my cover ep...=[ i am really worried about the recording....i mean yea i been practicing this song for quite awhile when i sing i sound fine.... but when i record my voice it sound so high....and weird...its nothing like me...at all....
and then i google it(duh!)So i Check a few webites here is the result
You hear your own voice very differently from everybody else around you. Not only do you hear the air vibrations your voice produces, but your ears also pick up the vibrations that run through your body(caused by your voice). This significantly alters the way you perceice your own voice compared to the people around you.
Hearing your voice recorded will sound very weird at first, not matter how good or bad the actual quality of the recording is, but it's something you have to get used to.-SPL
Why your voice sounds different on a recording - Timothy E. Hullar in Scientific American describes the reason. The sound of your voice reaches the inner ear by two paths:
Sound conducted by air enters the auditory canal of the ear and impacts the eardrum, which transmits the sound down the middle ear and finally into the fluid filled spiral of the inner ear called the cochlea.
Sound conducted by bone travels through the medium of bone and body tissue directly to the cochlea in the inner ear.
But there's a catch...
Bone conducted sound is generally perceived to have a lower, deeper tone than sound conducted down the auditory canal.
So when you speak, what you hear as your voice is a blending of signals: one signal comes from your auditory canal, and the other signal comes from bone conduction. Since the sound of your voice originates from your head, the dominant signal is from bone conduction, which gives the sound of your own voice a deeper tone or bias. However, when you hear your own voice via a recording, the bone conduction signal is no longer dominant, and your voice will sound higher pitched than you are used to.
The bias is easy to experience. Just plug your ears and listen to yourself talk. Compare that voice to the the voice you hear with your ears unplugged. That same phenomenon is occurring when you compare the familiar sound of your own voice with the sound of your voice in a recording.-RICHARD
ask anyone, when you hear your own voice on a record, it always sounds weird. the voice you hear from yourself sounds different from what others hear because of the fact that you hear it mostly inside of your skull (what noone else does). so you hear your own voice with the full resonance of your head/skull. without that and from "outside" it mostly sounds ok, but you're not used to that. you know, naturally people wouldn't hear their own voices, that's just by technology... but well, believe your friends when they say it sounds fine, they are the ones who hear your voice as it is..-REX
you never sound the same on the recorder, but if your friends say you sound ok then you probly do, you also might just be like me a little they say your good but you still dont like your own voice. the way i figure it some people will like your voice and then some might not you simply cant please every one. If that still dosent work for you there are two other ways you can test to see for your self. one make a youtube vid of you playin with face coverd if your shy. Then read the coments, people tend to be very honest be prepared to hear the good and bad. The second way i suggest is to get a jam session together or you can go solo and play in or around a crowd and watch the peoples faces again prepar for the good and bad comments or looks.
Hopes this helps and dont be afraid to just get out there.
this is also a good way to meet new people-DUDE
So now i am really confuse...should i continue my ep coz when i hear it i sound so bad.......and yesh....i cant sing really loud at that time so i use back up my voice when u here the word "girl" and the echo...sorry bout that i accidently hit the echo button before i saved it...==" anyway
here is what my friend who heard it first say
Elizabeth "Its okay,Give it your all(She meant by my volume of my voice), and Could have done better, and we will see it k?"
So Yea...i wanna record my self again but this time louder so yea....but really be honest if i suck tell me i suck if i okay then tell me i m okay tell me the truth promise =]?
Saturday, May 9, 2009
My Schools Friends are Here =D
Friday, May 8, 2009
Nicole
I have written nicole as re-edit,yeah....and now its out!!!Weeeee the whole new lyrics and plus if you have a guitar you can strum the song lol....but not the vocals YET
here you go the renew song called "Nicole"
Ps. "-" means one word not connected
and the tuning is Whole step down go to google search it tune it with them
if girls voice i am not quite sure but you can do it haf step down or standard tuning
verse
I Knew its you
Cadd G
That- was- changing my
Cadd
mind-I- Didnt know i was a
A7
fool-I Dont know why i still love you
(Same as the top)
I took a Step- to- you
but everything- i- do
never seems to bothers you- to
See it for a while
Chorus
Cadd
Nicole,You Know i willing swim
G
the ocean just to see you smile
G
Nicole,I am taking you aroundthe
Cadd
world just to see your eyes
A7
Dont Close your eyes
A7(4 strums only)
because nicole its just the beginning
(Drum Bass)
verse
(Same)
What is this
Heart-Beat that i keep on
beating-for-you to hold the
Heart-That Wont leave me
I Took 2 steps-to you
but everytime i do
i cant even look-at-you
because your my secret crush
Chorus(Same)
Nicole,You Know i willing swim
the ocean just to see you smile
Nicole,I am taking you aroundthe
world just to see your eyes
Dont Close your eyes
dont Close your eyes
Brighe
Em
Promise me that you wont look back
C maj7
(because i have taken that path)
A7
that wont be gone
Em
now its up to you to choose
C maj7
(and i cant guess who)
Em
if you want to leave me
(I will leave)
C maj7
If you want me to stay
(I will stay)
A7
But i will love you anyway
Chorus(Same)
Nicole,You Know i willing swim
the ocean just to see you smile
Nicole,I am taking you aroundthe
world just to see your eyes
C maj7
Dont Close your eyes
dont Close your eyes
dont Close your eyes
dont Close your eyes
dont Close your eyes
dont Close your eyes
Aite one more song will be post soon =D
Monday, May 4, 2009
Hello!!
so Lets be friends eyy?
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Trailer!
Anyway.....I just watch Wolvering Yesterday it was freakin Ama-Ama-Ama-Amazing!!!! YEah!
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Updates!
Sunday, April 19, 2009
HERE! i am BACK! =D
I was having dengue the worst sickness u would ever think of.....
Geez...it painful i will show u a photo i took of the infuse =D
anywayyy like i promise previous Blog here is the song =]
Nicole
Verse
Woah O, She gots the melody
,She gots the Rhythm
Woah O,And her Smile that’s worth’s a thousand miles me
Woah O,I could was my time for her
Woah O,She Would reply back to me in a while
So That I could waste a night
She Doesn’t Know the Rule
But She does Know the game
She Doesn’t need to
But she knows how to play
Chorus
Woah oh Oh Oh,Nicole
What you got to say
What you got say
At night?
Nicole
What you wanna say
Say it to my ear
So I can hear
Woah,She got an addiction
Woah , An Ice cream for a flavour
But then she got that cover up
With her being fed up
Woah,,Show me that Skylines
So Don’t Hid those smiles for me
Cause I just like to see you when you smile
And tonight will be the night
you whisper to me
show it to me
and let it be
you show it me
Evn if you don’t care
brighe
I Have cross the lines just to go you
Its because I trust you
I trust you
So Don’t hid those words
As I cant hold it much longer
So just say it fast to my ear
She the melody and I am the rhythm show
there u go hehehehehehehehehe now u koe the name? hahahhahaha